The Next Step

I used to believe in multi-tasking, and thought I was good at it. But the real power lies in laser-beam focus, a powerful drive, and strong awareness. It took me a while and quite a few injuries to learn that.

Focus, drive, awareness.

I don’t like self-promotion, and I think that’s part of my downfall. I wanted my work to speak for itself. I’ve been hiding behind my work, hoping someone would see me.

The result is, of course, that no one sees my work or me. How could I not see that art garners new meaning when the artist is revealed?

So now that this short film has been edited, and submitted, I want to choose my next creative project to work on. Like the list I started this blog with.

And yet — wouldn’t that be a disservice to the film I’ve made? I’ve dropped the ball so many times when I get to this part.

If others find the courage to dance the dance of self-promotion, why can’t I?

I don’t want to let my work down like that. I want people to know what I’ve done. I want to step out from behind my work, point to it and say, “I made this. Please look: I believe in this and want to share it with you.”

The pull to pick up another one of my projects is strong. Maybe I can do both: promote and start working on my next project.

I’ve failed at that in the past. It wasn’t the right kind of failure, though. It was the failure of not going for it. I want the failure that comes from trying, trying, trying — and not succeeding.

After all, “there’s no harm in trying.”